Today’s my birthday! Birthdays are awesome, I love them! Mostly other people’s though…..

In approaching 36, I became hugely aware of my impending shift from early 30s to firmly in mid 30s. And if I was being truly honest with myself, I’d admit that I’m more likely now in my late 30s.

Over the last few months, there’s been another crop of babies born within my circle of friends and in doing the usual reflections that come with entering another year of life, I can’t help but look at my own situation with the slight feeling of falling even further behind. Not only behind everyone else but also my own personal aspirations for starting a family.

I really wasn’t looking forward to my birthday this year, I’d resigned myself to the fact that I’d wait it out and just ignore it for as far as my family would allow me to. This of course just meant that with each passing day in the run up, I’d feel the day looming over with increasing dread as it got closer. It was counterproductive and it’s kind of out of character for me to accept defeat in this way. So while I knew there were some life facets I would’ve rather had be a part of my day, I couldn’t conjure them up them but I could be grateful for what I do have and compliment it in a way that’s unique to me. So I bought a one metre tall unicorn balloon, just to make sure I had something bright and beautiful to start my day with.

Happily, I can report that I’ve actually had a lovely day. Before I even left the house for work, I had a stack of messages filled with words of love and appreciation. I arrived at my desk to find a note and a rose from a colleague waiting for me. Later in the afternoon it was joined by a gorgeous bouquet from an equally gorgeous friend. We had the usual office cake gathering with a gift, which is actually something I really wanted – some yoga classes! And the day was finished off with our family tradition of food and fun round the dinner table with more cake, gifts and bellyfuls of laughter until unspeakable hours in the morning (even on a school night!).

I’ve spent the last moments of the day writing this blog because for once, I really wanted to capture the essence of my feelings while I am still in it. It’s the perfect round up to a pretty perfect day. And I’m embracing being on the ‘wrong side’ of 35 now. Who gives a hoot what the number is anyway! :-p